I haven’t shared anything in a couple months. Life has been racing by with no slow motion. The struggles of my relationship. Holding back on a few things. Got a lot of things going and in place. Kids are still running on the ceilings. Then I noticed how unhappy I was most of the time. I wasn’t myself. I was missing something. But I didn’t know what it was. Until recently I found it. I was missing God. I’ve been trying to get my fiancé to go up that path with me. Something for us to do together as a couple as far as reading the Bible and having our devotions and our weekly talks about what we did through the week and how we can help each other grow. But getting him onboard is a struggle. So I gave up on it. He’ll catch up when he’s ready. I had been making plans to buy a bible for myself so I can start this journey in my life. But I kept getting little weird gut feelings to hold off. I had something tell me I had a blessing coming. When I got home yesterday I had a package at my door. And I had to think back and remember if I had ordered anything. The package had my name on it so I had to think Hard. I hadn’t ordered anything and my fiancé didn’t order anything so what could have been in this package? I was curious like anyone else would have been. So, I opened it. And there laid the same exact bible I had planned to buy online in this Amazon box. I sat the box in front of me with the Bible still in it looking down at it wondering who did this. Is is it fate? So I call my MIL and she hadn’t ordered me anything but she said who ever did it must have faith in me and cares about me enough to buy me a new bible. Then I later found out it was my BIL and SIL who Bought this bible for me. And I didn’t expect it from them honestly. They are deep and true believers of God. And since I have been with their brother they haven’t supported our relationship because we live together and we’re not yet married. So they’ve been distant. Not coming to the family gatherings or birthday parties. So it’s kind of made me feel bad about myself. And I talked to my BIL a few nights back about how I wanted God in my life and I was ready for change. And as a gift for change he and his wife bought me a bible. I am blessed to have this family. And now I feel I have a bigger support system and more people guiding me in this journey.