I let it get the best of me… What is it you ask? DEPRESSION. there are days when i wake up dreading to let my feet touch the floor. There is so much I want to do, and in my mind I’m doing it but i’m not dong it physically. i let the dishes pile up, and the laundry will pile up. Depression isn’t just laying on the couch eating ice cream watching a Lifetime movie. Depression hits people differently. I can look at a drink i’m drinking and just cry, I dwell on things I have no control of. I lack motivation. Depression is the devil trying to do his nasty work on you. That’s why when i’m depressed i like to be alone. i feel like that’s how i handle it best. If i’m alone I have that time with God to recoup. I have that privacy to talk to him. I have that moment to pray and open up to him about my troubles. No man on earth can help you with your depression. its something you have to work on with God and yourself. in today’s world people “need” medication for depression. And in my eyes its just a way to brainwash you from the real problem. Whatever it is making you depressed change it. if your a stay at home mom/wife and you never get out of the house to do anything, my advise to you is rearrange the house. Buy new curtains for the living room. Buy new towels for the bathroom and repaint it. Buy a new bed spread and change your bedroom around. if your a working mom/wife rearrange your work area. dye your hair. paint your nails a new color instead of the normal color you always use. I’ve tried to find ways to cope with my depression. Yesterday was really bad for me. i felt so behind on my house duties i was folding clothes and i started to tear up. I felt overwhelmed. my fiance seen i felt bothered and he held me. He felt uneasy with how i was feeling because he was clueless as to why i was crying. he asked, “What’s wrong?” i told him i didn’t know what was wrong. Which I really didn’t know at the time. I was just as clueless as he was to the situation. a few hours later we get some of the kids together and go to Walmart and it finally hits me. I know whats been on my mind. its what i stated in my last post about the car information and the school clothes. Well he assured me i had nothing to worry about. Today i woke up with a new mind. I woke up with orange hair because i’m in the process of coloring it. I figured it would help me with the funk I was in. i changed the sheets on the bed this morning maybe thinking it would help with the funk also. Like i said i woke up in a good mood but I still let it get the best of me. Depression is different for everyone. but i feel like us moms try to tough it out because we feel like nothing can be done about it. NOT TRUE! speak out. call someone and just talk. even if its your child. Ask them random questions about their self and see how much they know. Or see what they want to know. text your spouse and open up and tell them whats really on your mind. most likely they’ll stop what their doing for a few minutes to help you. I’ve had to learn that the hard way. i’m still struggling with the whole communication part. there are times when i open up to my spouse and i just feel hes coming at me a little aggressive. which i know hes not, I just feel like he is because my heart already feels like the size of a sweet pea. I’m already tenderhearted on top of how I’m feeling. i just let it get the best of me. when i know something is supposed to go a certain way and its not I get upset and i let it get the best of me. But don’t let it get the best of you. Sometimes you just have to take things with a grain of salt. Dont let it get the best of you. I will continue to work on my depression and try not to let things get the best of me. I refuse to let the devil get the best of me!