Mom life. 1.0

Okay so I’m not the best mom. But I’m also not the worst mom. I became a mom of 4 to a mom of 7 overnight. It’s not like I had 9 months to prepare for each child. I get overwhelmed A LOT. Yes I have help. And I’m blessed to have the help that I do. I don’t so much get breaks. I have what I call “breathers”. And my breathers consist of me having a shower after the kids go to bed or walking out the the chicken house and getting the eggs. I can be in the kitchen over a hot stove cooking dinner make everyone their plates ask if everyone is okay and as I sit down to cook off… “MOMMY!” Someone needs juice or milk. Sometimes my patience are thin. Sometimes my patience are on overflow. Some mornings I wake up motivated and energized ready to go and start my day! And some mornings I stay in sweats and just go with the flow. Having 7 kids I’m trying my hardest to get a schedule going with everyone and get organized. I want to be the organized mom. I want to have my charts with everything marked down on it and my calendars. I want to make the perfect dinners every night for my family. Sometimes I sit and look at all my kids and wonder what they see when they look at me.. am I doing a bad job? What could I do better? What am I missing? Being a stay at home mom is a job in itself. Everyone has their own opinions about that topic. But no one knows what it’s like until they’ve lived it. I love being a mom don’t get me wrong. But I seriously feel like there’s a lot I could do different.